it's raining heavily outside ma window...... it's a good day to sleep. cuddle under ma comforter....how nice....but here i am bloggin'.... i was actually studying but there are a lot of things in ma mind.... so i decided to side track for awhile. nway, i'm in not in a very good mood today....... juz like da weather...haha. inject a little humour to it. tt's besides da point. i am never da type to start an argument or some sort like tt. i've always been da quiet one who doesn't have a lot to say to anything.... but tt doesn't mean tt i don't have anything to say or have any opinions in mind.... or i'm juz this blur girl who gives this blur n dumb face. i purposely do that cause i'm just tired to layan you peeps.... i'm not here to brag or to have hatred against someone. but da the time spent alone made me realize a lot of things. tt also got me thinking too. i don't like to bear any grudges. i like to settle problems there and then and not drag the case. See..... there a lot of things that you peeps out there don't know about me. never assume things. but then, i have many wonderful friends out there..... but there's only this one person that i've been confiding feelings and things t0...... don't take da drift as the end of our friendship. it's not ova yet. da drift is juz a period of thinking and realization. KEEP THAT IN MIND! i thank ya for all da times you've been there for me. but da some things you do kinda hurt me indirectly.... never got da strength to tell ya all this....as i know that you'll NEVER take it well! i've seen that far t0o many times gal. coz you'll always want things to go your way.... that sort of things. like i said ppl have limits.... n yes, you haven't seen ma limits yet.... coz you're da only one that has been exploding all da time... i tried to be as patient as possible. but ya....ma wire snapped! i'm neither here to pick a fight nor start something unpleasant.... juz wanna let you know how i feel and that try to realize it yourself. coz i'm no longer 8 years old but i'm gonna turn 18 this year. so i don't wanna have childish and foolish games. all of us have to solve it like adults. tc. you'll always be ma friend. but if you wanna see and take this differently, that is your choice. i'm juz here as fren....

P.S: i have a lot to say actually. but face-to-face talk is much betta. blogging is not as satisfying....
stupid blog!!! it's supposed to be dated 30th April!!!!! not 29th April!!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

rock, i totally agree wit ya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yup,everyone has limits, so don't push it!! nway, enough said bout' tt.... i'm supposed to go for editing today. it's from 10am to 4pm.... but ma lovin' and considerate crew, told me i don't have to come at all. they want me to study for ma marketing exam which is this saturday. i feel bad though..... but they said it's fine wit 'em. they don't want me to fail. so sweet of 'em rite? thx guys..... nway, i'm kinda reading ma txtbk rite now.....haha...surprised eh? btw.....i'm kinda bored....yesterday, before i met rock, i bumped into someone...... he put a smile on ma face...... we didn't talk long though..... he was wit his latest girlfriend....i understand how he feels..... he smsed me when i got home.....he was at a friend's chalet...... n he asked whether if it's ok if he take me out after ma exam...... n i told him i can't promise him.....i told him tt he's attached now..... wat would his present gf think rite? even though, we shared something in da past..... we have to move on..... n he replied by saying we have a lot catchin' up to do......i will never forget you......you were ma 1st.... we had somethin' goin on together..... i miss u..... n i replied..... i understand how you feel but u gotta let her noe if you're really takin me out aite? i don't wanna coz any trouble here. i'm chillin' ya noe.... he said ok... actually he told his gf about me already....tt sounds like ice!! haha...why does all ma x have da same characteristics???? tt's why i luv 'em.... haha...i've got to move on. yes, life is short n i 've got to live it to da fullest! haha...i got to go now.....i'm gonna go out. peace peeps! remember, don't push limits!

i went to town yesterday. met up wit dre, rock n jon. da starbucks raffles city guy wasn't workin' yesterday.haiz...... nevermind, coz we can always chill there during our holidays. haha!! i'm lookin' forward to chillin'. haha. we went to taka n finally, chilled at far east. alicia joined us. n not after, dre n rock had to leave. actually, i was havin a terrible headache...... erin joined me n jon at taka(we actully walked back there)......in the end, erin n i chilled at esplanade till this morning..... haha....we relieve wat happened last semester...all da crazy things we did.....talked abt ice......living me confused.....unattended.......she said tt sani (erin's current bf) would luv to beat him up when he bumps into ice in tampines...... thks! haha!! a bit piece of ma mind was given. we chilled n fell asleep..... guess wat?! sani actually cycled wit his freinds from tampines to esplanade!!!!! the things guys do for their girlfriends!! haha. you go sani boy!!!! TAKE FULL CARE OF HER AITE????!!!!!!!!!!!! aite..i'm gonna get stuff for speech later...... i'm exhausted.....hope tt the guy is working today!!!

below, is a song by christina milian, titled until i get over you

Woke up today thinking of you
Another night and I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they it never come true
I press rewind
I remember when
I close my eyes and I’m with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain
Every time I hear your name

Chorus
The sun won’t shine since you went away
Seems like the rain’s falling every day
There’s just one heart, where there once was two
That’s the way it’s gotta be,
‘til I get over you…
[you...........]

Walked through the park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can’t escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say the time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here

Chorus

[till i get over....... you...]

Bridge
When will this river of tears stop fallin’
Where can I run so I won’t feel alone
Can’t walk away when the pain keeps callin’
I’ve just gotta take it from here on my own
But it’s so hard to let go .....
[oh no no no]
[oh no no]
Chorus

[you.........................]
[you.........................]
thats the way its gotta be until i get over you
[until i get over....you.....]